AKBxJKT48 CONCERT DOUBLE KILL
Bisa konser dan sepanggung dgn AKB48 mamang menjadi kesempatan yg akan sulit didapatkan.
Dan tgl 20 Feb kemarin merupakan saat yg sangat memorable.
Ditambah,
Ada seseorang yg special.
Yup.
There's my oshi - Hirari.
I'm happy for the concert, but the moments after the concert is killing me.
Sehari sebelum konser, tgl 19 kamarin, member JKT beserta member AKB melakukan reharseal barsama. And I couldn't even talk to her.
I couldn't make an eye contact with her. I even couldn't be any closer to her like...I always tried my best to avoid myself. And yes I did a good job with that one.
Semua teman menyarankan unt berbicara.
Tp gimana ya...I just can't.
..
Diakhir reharseal, saya memutuskan unt berbicara dan bahkan merancang dialog pembicaraan yg akan lakukan. Tapi semua ini akan saya lakukan besoknya aka pas waktu konser.
..
Nyatanya saya tetap tidak berani.
Tidak juga sampai akhir konser.
Saya kira saya pasti akan menyesal.
Tapi! Di detik2 terakhir sblm semuanya selesai ternyata ada kejadian lain yg menunggu. Saat semuanya berbenah unt makan malam bersama, teman saya +Fakhriyani Shafariyanti dan +Dwi Putri Bonita menyeret saya keluar dr ruangan member.
"Kita sudah panggilin Hirari. Gpp yg penting foto dulu. Ditungguin tuh diluar"
Dan seketika mereka berhasil menyeret saya keluar, saya menyusun rencana unt melarikan diri. Sesaat sebelum saya menyeret diri saya masuk lg keruangan member, Hirari san memegang dan menahan tangan saya.
..
Then the things after that just turned horrible cause the only thing that I did just freaking out, screaming here and there, crying like crazy..
She came to me, then I ran away, the I cried, then she chased me again, I ran again and freaked out again.
It just
So berlebihan, so norak, so embrassing and disgusting
Kalau kalian pernah melihat video si Utik merekam reaksi saya pada saat Mas Donal Skehan memfollow dan memention saya, ya kurang lebih seperti itulah. But way worse. Way way worse.
She said 'we can be friends'
but I replied this instead
'I prefer Idol and fans relationship actually'
*awkward silence
wat de actual fug
She said we can be friends but I said I want to stay as fans. wtfwtfwtf why in the hell I'm being so rude?!?
'Can you speak English?'
'Yes but I can't talk to you'
...
aawwwkkkwaaarrdd
Banyak sekali detail yg tidak bisa saya ceritakan karna sangat memalukan dan menjijikan *sigh
Mb Safa bilangnya 'Gpp nop. Daripada km nyesel ntar'
Ya tp rencana saya unt do the stay cool conversation is ruined.
Yes its ruined by me...
Well if it's not my friends, I bet I will never be able to talk to Hirari even after the day passed and she's already went back to Japan.
Thanks to my friends *happy yet angry tears
So yeah.
After 2 years, I finally could meet her in person again.
Had a warm talk. Got a lot of hug. Got tusot. She's so nice I can't even... *criescries
Saya dan Hirari san juga berbicara close next to each other. It just that close tapi saya lebih sering memalingkan muka. Why.. *sobs
Berbahagialah kalian yg dapat bertemu idola kalian dgn mudah dan sering.
sigh
Saya merasa diri saya memalukan.
I'm really happy. But I pissed cause I made myself being such a disgusting creature. I regret for unable to control myself.
I'm really mad cause you know...It's been two years and I don't even know when will I could meet her again. She's in Japan and me is here! I'm sorry but you get wat am sayin? And I couldn't even took the moments more seriously
*sobs
Andai waktu bisa diulng kembali, saya pasti akan memanfaatkan momen2 itu dgn lebih bijak dan baik.
Tapi
Yasudah..
Saya jadikan pelajaran saja.
..
.
I'm just that kind of person who couldn't stand things dat I adore.
I really like her as a person that I support and adore.
I'm not having absession like the things that come for Doitsu.
But
I hope she will be succeed for anything dat she'll do.
P.s : Saya sakit pada saat konser. Tp karna saya sudah bisa berbincang dan berfoto dgn Hirari san (walaupun saya berakhir memalukan) , saya rasa sakitnya worth it. Saya tidak sempat berfoto dgn hape saya karna sibuk freaking out. Yg fotoin malah temen2 yg lain.
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